เนื้อเพลง BoyWithUke - Understand

Girl, I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand 

But I can't, wanted to be your man back then 

And you knew I fell for you but you. Just broke my heart in two 

I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed

Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med 

When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead 

And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat 

I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again" 

So instead I took my pen and started writing evidence 

And whеn I started making sense I found that I had rеached the end

Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends You wanna bet you're just pretend? 

You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing You're not shit 

I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did 

I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived 

They were my neighbors, razor blades. And different flavored pills I hate

Therefore I'm not sure, leave my last straw 

I'm so glad, stuck in the past, I said that

Girl, I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand 

But I can't, wanted to be your man back then 

And so far I never held you with my arms

 So it's hard to be the one you aren't 

With instead filled with anxiety 

Always was a part of me, guess I'm not cut out to be

Somebody 'cause it's not me I'm not used to all the talk,

It was an introvert That had converted feelings into writing 

Used to cope with all my problems Using notes and lots of rhyming 

Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying 

I'm not lying when I say that I would rather daily go back 

To the times I would try be the guy the people know

I was fighting with the demons hiding far beyond my eyelids 

On an island full of violence in my head that I could pilot 

Oh, the sun don't shine, the skies turn gray I felt it coursing-

Through my veins I said before I'm not okay But you don't listen anyway

 You know I tried, you turned away You straight up lied-

Right to my face. You fucked my life, 

Ruined my day But you don't know, so I'll say

 Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did 

(You don't know, so I'll say) 

 Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it 

(So I'll say) 

 Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did 

(You don't know, so I'll say) 

 Nobody cares, you lied, it's no fair, you still deny it 

(So I'll say) 

Girl, I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand 

But I can't, wanted to be your man back then 

And too bad I know I can't wake up 

Because I lost my weight and you don't give a fuck 

About me, this could be a dream, 

I can't see The things that you see, so please, oh 

Girl, I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand 

But I can't, wanted to be your man back then 

And you know I'll play along. You were my home, I wrote you songs 

And now you're dead to me effectively 

Removed yourself outside my dreams